Searching for Sanity

There was a lull in the middle of the afternoon, moments between a Hands Off Rally and an Easter dinner with my son, on this the Saturday before Earth Day. Easter is a big thing for Jake; Earth Day for me. 

First, his story: Years ago when living in a different group home he connected deeply with his primary caregiver who even on her Sunday’s off would come to take him to church. This beautiful Hispanic woman became a cross between a second mother, buddy and caregiver. It wasn’t long after his mother and my wife had died. She also made sure he was registered to attend a summer Christian camp within an hour’s drive of the group home.

Unfortunately, as happens with group homes, she eventually decided to move on. Yet her influence was so deep that years later church holidays and the camp continue to be his heartfelt necessities. He tolerates his father, who is more spiritual than religious. Where he finds peace within the folds of a saintly robe, mine come with nature. 

A distant flash of pinkish purple caught my eye, and my spirit.

So on this Saturday afternoon with a window of time before our dinner, my thoughts, as spiritual as they were, was to head to nearby Sibley State Park where I might amble through the dense, hilly woodlands in search of some early spring blooms of Hepatica and other woodland fauna. With the ongoing political turmoil we’re facing my traipsing through the prairies and woodlands have suffered greatly of late along with my spirituality. Sometimes I return home with few if any images, and most with little artistic effort. And still with a cluttered mind. 

Before realizing it I had lost track of my bearings and was quite a ways north of the Sibley turnoff. Pulling off to the shoulder of US 9 to gather my thoughts, and to gauge a possible time frame, my decision was to head to the Lake Johanna Esker some 20 minutes deeper into the hills and woodlands of the moraine where a fine prairie “wilderness” awaited, if you can describe a grassland as such. This Nature Conservancy is home to perhaps the most prolific Prairie Smoke patches I’ve ever witnessed. Prairie Smoke and Pussytoes, one a brilliant pink, the other offering a gleaming contrast of white.

Although mid-April meant I’d likely miss both, it was worth a look. After arriving I sat for several moments to gaze at the distant esker, a tall narrow glacial stream bed towering over the adjacent prairie and now buried beneath layers of till, dormant grasses and gangly oak trees. That old stream bed is quite visible, unlike in the geological age when it lay buried beneath an ice sheet perhaps a mile straight up from where I was parked.

Sandhill Cranes captured from the same spot on the hill near the esker.

Eventually I grabbed my camera with a multipurpose zoom lens and ambled through the gate to follow a motorized trail angling toward the top of the nearest rise where typically hundreds Prairie Smoke plants would be blooming. Small leaves barely the size of a fingernail hugged the ground. Then, off to my left and down the rise a bit, my eye caught a hint of pink, and there it was, small and bowing gently toward the earth, a small Prairie Smoke blossom. Instantly I was onto my stomach focusing the lens. Nature now ruled. All of that confusion and nightmarish thought was suddenly gone. 

After grabbing a few images, I rolled over to sit in the meadow, looking toward the esker, remembering a moment years ago while sitting here a pair of Sandhill Cranes flew over looking thoroughly prehistoric. Now in a distant wetland, a swan floated on the stilled surface, and high above a small pod of  pelicans soared across a single cloud. Nature revived. With each breath my mind eased, little by little. Scents of the meadow and whiffs of spring meshed with the smell of earth. My eyes resettled on the poetry of the lone Prairie Smoke blossom, folded neatly into a perfect poem. 

And on the way home, a hill of Pasque Flowers …

Moments after I stood and regained my balance, it was off through a shallow valley to the distant hill where perhaps I might find some Pasque Flowers, one of our first of the floral seasons. Finding none, I then ambled toward the massive mound of the esker where dormant prairie grasses and oak trees failed to hide the geological relic.

In time, and after a quick turn through Sibley amd dinner with Jake, I made a stop on the way home on a hill overlooking the Big Stone National Wildlife Refuge where I’ve often visited for Pasques, and once again was rewarded. Now fully mature from when I was here just a week before, the blossoms begged for portraits, and I accommodated, once again lying on the ground on the hillside, working the aperture and shutter speeds, playing with the light, doing what one needs to do when making images of nature. Where before the blossoms seem to shrink from sight, they were now open and bold, lifting blueish petals toward the blue sky and drifting clouds.

A nice ending, my prelude to Earth Day.

It was a good day, recharging the soul while celebrating earth … just days before the official Earth Day celebration. 

It’s a day offering many memories, from that first one at an auditorium in Denver while working for the Post, sitting with a friend as speakers stood before a nearly empty cavernous room and wondering if the celebration would actually catch on. That people would understand and pay attention to our lonely planet. A couple of years later I met and interviewed Earth Day founder Sen. Gaylord Nelson at a convention in Laramie, WY. Many years and Earth Day celebrations have since past, including when my Art of Erosion exhibit would be part of a Smithsonian water presentation at Prairie Woods Environmental Learning Center just a few miles from Sibley,. 

And on this Saturday came the enjoyment of some special moments defying the man and his political henchmen  who seems intent on destroying it all. Inspite of that chaos this was what I had been missing, that comforting peace that encourages my spirituality: peace sparked by a lone Prairie Smoke blossom, so colorful, so delicate, bowing poetically as if it in itself was offering a blessing to earth, caressing the prairie with such blissful grace. That was an offered poem I shall never forget.

Wrong Turns

At first glance the coffee-colored pavement we had entered after a late afternoon of driving through Bryce Canyon National Park seemed just what we needed. A straight shot up to I-70 and our hope of entering our third National Park in two days. Then we crossed the first cattle guard, which brought a smile and comment from Roberta. A mile or so later we crossed another, and another. One cattle guard after another and not one sighting of a beef animal. Not one.

We were in a corner of the Great American Desert. If not for the distant mountains, bluish with a hint of reddish hue, we could have as well been in the Australian outback. Reddish soil. Roundish scrub as far as one could see. If a kangaroo had suddenly hopped into view I wouldn’t have been surprised. It’s a lonely stretch of a long, straight highway that has apparently grasped different colloquial names, yet only one appeased me: the Black River Canyon Road. 

As dusk began to settle in around us we entered gentle switchbacks into a valley …  into the actual Black River Canyon! Two colorful Gambel’s quail crept along the foliage. Long-tailed Magpies did near poetic air sprints across the highway. Mule deer grazed along the roadside, and a pair of antelope barely moved as we sped by.

A view from the Zion Mount Carmel Highway at Zion NP.

Indeed, it wasn’t until we returned home that we finally realized that the Black River Canyon Road had been a wrong turn! That would have been our second of a very long travel day that had begun in Las Vegas earlier that morning. 

Our first was discovered at the trail’s end of Zion National Park hours earlier. We had stopped at a ranger’s station for a bathroom and sandwich break when I began comparing place names we had passed with a huge map of Zion. My goal had been to follow the Virgin River up to the Narrows, where Roberta had already firmly stated she had no interest in investing in a hike. Me? I was holding onto a final decision.

Imagine my surprise when I realized that after leaving the main park entrance we had veered off toward the eastern entrance of the park and was nowhere near the Virgin River watershed. Not that it wasn’t breathtakingly beautiful, for it was. Not that we would have eventually been on this very road, for this was the route we needed to traverse toward Bryce Canyon National Park.

Our first of many arches, this at Bryce NP .. which would have been a photographer’s dream early in the morning.

Apparently our “confusion” happened at Canyon Junction. Had we been more aware we would have immediately realized the challenging switchbacks were on the Zion Mt. Carmel Highway. Perhaps in time we can make it back to Zion, and if so, make the hike up the Virgin River into the Narrows. Yet, two wrong turns in a day? 

Back to Bryce, which would have been a photographer’s joy early in the morning. Back when we realized our wrong turn at Zion we also noticed radically worn rear tires. Treadless tires! So our drive from Zion to Bryce was heart thumping, for we had only seen a single tire shop in a small village. Also, the crowds and overflow parking at Zion was nowhere near what we were seeing. The tire guy in a small village was hopeful we could make it to Tropic, Utah, where he said we would find an actual tire shop. We needed both rear tires, which was before the Tropic tire guy pointed to an outward appearing appendage protruding from one of the front tires. 

“This one is the bad news,” he said. “This tire is actually more dangerous than your rear tires.” We now have four black rubber souvenirs from our trip.

Despite the continually beautiful views in Capitol Reef NP, the petroglyphs captured my attention.

On that Black River Canyon Road we felt suddenly secure. So off we went on the loop toward Torrey and what would be our third park in two days, with an afternoon date with the Arches National Park. It was in Torrey just before the evening news that we ran into our first of two wonderful curry joints, and this one actually served curry pizzas … basically across the highway from a motel where we awakened the owner to rent a room once we convinced him we weren’t traveling with Joe Pye, our ever hopeful “whatever blood” rescue.

Early the next morning after a thoroughly regrettable breakfast we were off to Capitol Reef with its cool abandoned orchards and petroglyphs, not to mention more red sandstone. 

Oh, about that second missed turn? This wasn’t discovered until we were home and scrolling across Facebook when a meme appeared describing one of the ten most beautiful highway trips in the world. Get this: not just in the States, but the world, a highway traversing land between Tropic and Torrey. The “All American Road,” 124 miles of canyonland bliss.

My favorite image from Arches NP, and yes, there is an arch visible! Arches was our fourth National Park in two days!

Here is a published poem of explanation: “The way the road connects with the land, feels somehow a part of the landscape, embedded in the slickrock, even though it was once an intrusion into the space. Like the way a lightning strike can ignite a fire in a forest and sweep out gnarly, dense undergrowth competing for sunlight, there is a period of adaptation and recovery. It virtually becomes part of the ecosystem.”

So, within just a few hours our two wrong turns took us away from the Virgin River Valley at Zion and the All American Road between national parks in the Utah desert. Yet, you don’t know what you missed until you realize in the end it made absolutely no difference; that even “wrong turns” can be so exceptionally beautiful.

A Blizzard in March

Being in NOLA for Fat Tuesday hadn’t crossed our minds. Celebrating a small Mardi Gras  in a small coffee house with fine musicians and some Cajun fare was on the mind, however … until the blizzard arrived. 

For much of the afternoon we held onto hope. For a moment or two earlier in the day we considered going to a protest at the office of U.S. representative before the concert, until the blizzard arrived.

After a morning Zoom meeting much of the rest of the day was spent completing a writing assignment. Another piece I had hoped to have finished still awaits in note form. Between the assignments I decided to take Joe Pye for a hike through the prairie. Then the blizzard hit.

Snow flakes make like the Milky Way looking toward the woodland.

My ever hopeful hound didn’t seem bothered at first, for he’s always gungho about our prairie hikes. It seemed the northern loop might be a bit longer than the south one and just the break necessary to clear the mind. My camera was tucked beneath my arm. Then the blizzard raged. Huge fluffy balls of snow carried by a harsh wind forced snow between my eyes and glasses. Despite being dressed for it, the cold knifed through.

Straight from the north, and we were walking right into the blast. A couple of times I stopped, pulled off the mittens to focus my camera. Not being a “point and shoot” type of photographer, this meant working the aperture and the speed in an attempt to fully capture the moment, the blizzard. Within seconds my fingers felt the wrath of the wind and snow, so the maneuvering was accomplished as rapidly as possible, an image or two captured, and the mittens replaced as rapidly as possible.

The blizzard was more than I had bargained for, so we cut a path through the seedless, wind-bent bluestem toward the woodland. Near the cover of trees we gained the protection we were aiming for. Just inside the canopy was my wood perch. A small bench of cut logs. The afternoon before, in near 50 degree temperatures, I had sat on the perch created by an old friend who back after we had purchased the land had come to clear a path through the grove. Now weathered and cracked, his artwork holds true, and his path is one we still work to keep cleared through the summer, and the one Joe Pye and I would traverse to escape the blizzard.

My little bench that Kurt made for me when he first cut a path through the grove, a wonderful place for forest bathing.

For several moments I stood looking at Kurt’s little bench, where I had sat a day before with my back against the broken tree to meditate. Nowadays this meditation has a name. Forest bathing, where slow, deep breaths are taken in deeply then released through your arms and legs before being drawn back in, creating a circle of inner peace. 

As you breathe, you check your various senses. What do you see? Ah, the trees, many of them quite old and bent if not broken. Some that had been sawn and now have shoots reaching upwards. Not one or two, but a half dozen or more defying death. Basswood, perhaps. To the north, twin trunks of an old and dominate cottonwood stands as a sentinel along the edge between the woody grove and the northern prairie. It and the adjacent basswood and weedy buckthorn are common hosts to warblers and cedar waxwings, blue jays and sparrows of a woodland-based summer. Now, despite the calmness and quiet of this archway between winter and spring, there are no birds. No chatter. Only a stillness beneath the hum of wind.

Beyond the edge and into the prairie grasses, the wind roars through the grasses and tickles the top of the canopy. Outside of the edge of the trees, just past Kurt’s perch, wind-driven snow nearly rolls in waves across the landscape. The fence row trees separating this half section from the neighbor’s field a mile to the east is lost in the whiteout.

So we move along, Joe Pye and I. He continuously lifts his snout to capture scents that escape me. That is one of the senses you attempt to awaken in your forest bathing meditation. No scents of interest came to this  inadequate human.

While the winds ebbed and flowed, at times this cottonwood was nearly invisible.

We edged along up the slight rise though the stretched arm width of this long cut and worn path I had last cleared in the late autumn. After reaching the apex of the rise, the path led us down toward the hen house and driveway. An expanse of a park-like opening free of invasive buckthorn and weedy burdock was starting to collect a thin carpet of snow, what little could drift through the canopy. Beyond the grove, to the south and west, distant trees were nearly impossible to see through the rolling haze of snow. 

When we reached the end of the wooded path, we then headed to the warmth of the kitchen. Inside, through the beautifully wide window we placed here instead of the twin “double-hungs,” the wind driven snow coursed through the adjacent stalk field, rolling, wind-driven blasts of snow much like the waves on the shores of Lake Superior. Joe Pye lapped his water as warmness filled the hearth, and a calmness settled the soul. Outside the blizzard of March roared mightily, while inside, warmness prevailed. 

Callings

There it lay, weathered and broken, a once sturdy branch of a burr oak that seemed to be reaching out, inviting me back into a world of consciousness and mental peacefulness that seemed to have slipped away … a dreary feeling that has held me captive since early November.

As the oak reached outwardly, I raised my camera to record the moment. Sometimes you have to do these things. When nature calls one must lend an ear. Open an eye. Especially a mind. To paraphrase the late naturalist John Muir, “The oaks are calling and I must listen.”

This singular oak was in the savanna of the Bonanza Education Center some 11 miles due west of Listening Stones Farm, and as my habit, I was once again meandering through this northern portion of Big Stone Lake State Park seeking, well, mental peace.

At the moment, those limbs seemed to reaching out to me.

Back in November I was frequently searching the many wetlands for calm waters. Yes, photographic metaphors. Just like the oak limb. That quest began the day following the results of the election. For about two weeks my files were stuffed with images of just that … calm waters. A stagnant metaphor, it turns out. When frigid airs froze the wetlands, it seemed for awhile I was lost. As temperatures plummeted way below the comfort level, I entered that mental cocoon.

My recent feeling of detachment from nature is solidly evident in my photography files. And with my writing. Oh, I’ve tried. With imagery and words, though little has come of it. This isn’t like me. It isn’t who I am. And I have not been comfortable on who or what it seems I have become. A man shriveling into a darkness of mind; one who for perhaps the first time in his life has chosen to hide from resilience. This is not what I’m comfortable being, at this age, a bent shell of an old man.

Then I found myself driving through Bonanza on a February afternoon. For an unexplainable reason I had stopped the pickup to just sat quietly. My was window lowered as I breathed in the cold air while seeking a certain calmness. Since I was parked on the road between the woods and a woody ravine, perhaps I was seeking that calmness I feel when forest bathing. When I opened my eyes those limbs of the oak were reaching toward me.

My first moment of calm waters …

Ever since I was introduced to the savanna several years ago, Bonanza has been a harbor for my soul. In decent weather this is where I come to silently meditate and breathe, often easing down to rest my back against the solid trunk of an oak tree, or to even lay beneath an umbrella of staghorn sumac. Countless times I’ve merely sat on a plank bridge crossing over a spring fed rivulet coursing through one of the dozens of ravines found in the park … ravines common to the Big Stone Moraine all along the eastern border of Big Stone Lake.

If my meditation is deep enough even the boats of fishermen on the adjacent lake are duffed into nothingness, often lost in the wind. A scolding wren, though, can break through, as can the peeping chatter of warblers and silken cedar waxwings from high above in the canopy.

Granted, Bonanza isn’t to be confused with a wilderness. While it is fairly uncommon to meet others on the few trails that curve through the undulating savanna, it happens. Cars will slowly cruise down the single gravel road to the Education Center, turn in the wide loop before heading back slowly toward the climb out of the park and valley.

While it seems most convenient to take the lakeside trail, especially with the snow cover, tackling the various loops into the hillside woods beyond the Education Center is almost like entering a different world. A cathedral of tall trees.

I hear the cranes calling, a springtime ritual …

A friend, writer and musician Douglas Woods, regularly sends his Sunday morning thoughts from his cabin along the Mississippi River, his “Church of the Pines.” Douglas is seemingly closer to God than I am, although over time we have individually found our respective woods of worship. Mine is here at Bonanza, where when I drive up that hill out of the valley I most often do so with less tension and a sense of mental freedom.

Twice this week that has happened. Somehow I feel stronger. Mentally refreshed. Again I look toward nature. The coming migrations of snow geese and sandhill cranes, of pasque flowers popping up from roughened and sparse hillsides, of wading shorebirds and cottonwoods filled with bald eagles … those passing through rather than the ones now tethered to their nests.

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Scoring My Annual Buck!

Travis Sandberg surprised me. I had entered his farm office for an interview for a We Are Water panel scheduled for display in March and quickly realized his office was also a studio for his taxidermy work. Although some of his acreage surrounds Listening Stones, his being a taxidermist was surprising.

Skulls with antlers littered the floor before becoming European mounts, all cleaned by mealworms so perfectly they glistened while awaiting a mounting on wooden plaques, already stained and polished, along with a wall lined with several traditional mounts in various stages of completion. In a later tour of his “man cave” inside his rural farmhouse, his own collection of artistic mounts was displayed along with antelope, pheasant and a fine walleye.

Yes, I knew he was a man who farms in a way that protects both his valuable soil and all of our water resources, which was the reason for my visit. But this? And, Travis is as diligent with his art of taxidermy as he is with his precious top soil.

My 2024 buck was found in the oak savanna of the Bonanza section of Big Stone Lake State Park.

On the other hand I can also say that, yes, I once again got my antlered buck this past autumn. And, no, Travis won’t be mounting my buck for it still lives as far as I know. My buck was shot with my trusty Nikon rather than with a bow or gun, captured within the confines of Big Stone Lake State Park. This is where I go after the Upper Minnesota River Arts Meander and around the hunting season in search of my annual buck. I’ll also readily admit that I do not adhere to the two-week gun hunting season nor the longer, September to December, open season for archery.

This past year I was pleasantly surprised and relieved to even find a photographable buck, and a nice one at that, since there was a special permit granted for area farmers along the Lake Road to kill up to 10 whitetail deer they found munching on their commodity crops of corn and soybeans. Apparently it was a successful program for the deer population along the highway seems significantly reduced.

This beautiful buck was shot in 2022.

While that is rather sad, perhaps there is a silver lining for in past years in the depth of winter many area deer appeared to be stressed food wise. Shrunken flanks, and their munching on shrubs right next to the traffic without regard for the danger and in spite of their shy nature. Over population of the deer herd can also lead to such diseases as chronic wasting disease (CWD) and “blue tongue,” officially known as epizootic hemorrhagic disease. This viral disease can spread quickly through a herd. Symptoms include mouth ulcers and a bluish tongue. 

Fortunately my antlered bucks have all appeared to be healthy, surrounded by a robust herd of does. They seemed to move freely on the park land and along the hills and ravines that drain into Big Stone Lake within the Bonanza portion of the park. Admittedly, there have been some beautiful racks on some of my bucks that were certainly worthy of Sandberg’s trophy’s art.

In 2021 this buck tried to hide from me.

Way back in my youth I remember when a photograph appeared in our local Macon Chronicle Herald of the Missouri Conservation Department releasing a buck and three does from a horse trailer into a nearby woodland. The foursome had been captured in the Ozarks before being released into our wooded hillsides. Later, the same would happen with wild turkeys, and now both are so prominent that Outdoor Life and Sports Afield magazines have since placed Macon County within the top ten hunting counties in the nation for both species. That wasn’t my youth.

However, I was briefly a hunter. Years after the release I had a nice hickory recurve bow and arrows with Fred Bear razor-headed arrows and deemed myself rather proficient at archery, Thanks to my adventures with fly fishing in the area around our family farm, I had a rather decent knowledge of the nearby woody wilds. I knew of a stump surrounded by waist-high brush, and figured this would be a great hideout. People were not hiding in trees back then. I sat with my bow, arrow notched, on the stump to await the big kill. I envisioned the rack. A mount like I’d seen in the Herter’s catalogs and now on Sandberg’s walls. In fact, a mount like my friend Sandberg could create. After a few hours of fidgeting I gave up, hopped into the pickup and drove home with the realization that perhaps I wasn’t made for long hours of patient and tedious sitting. Today I might be more patient and in tune with nature. That was my last hunt, however, probably back in 1958 or so.

A proud pose by my 2020 capture.

In my moving between states through my career years I hadn’t given either hunting or deer much thought. I do recall during my one disasterous month as an editor of Country Magazine viewing an excellent portfolio sent to the magazine by a Kentucky photographer with the most beautiful deer images I had ever seen. Leaping fences. Facing off, antler to antler. Picturesque portrayals in the hilly woodlands like back home. His images were definitely in the wild, and much different from what I had remembered by the legendary Leonard Lerue in the 1960s on whitetail deer.

Then I moved here to Big Stone County to plant a prairie and begin a second career as a prairie photographic artist and learned I was surrounded by incredible numbers of deer. I recalled the Kentuckian’s portfolio, and have since spent hours chasing the whitetails. Does and fawns. Winter, spring, winter and fall. And I began my autumn ritual of searching for a nice buck with a beautiful rack of antlers.

In 2018 there was a moment during the rut …

To date I’ve been rather fortunate. And the deer have been somewhat cooperative. My one wall “trophy” was discovered on a canoe trip along the Minnesota river years ago, the weathered skull of a nice buck that we believed had found a very secluded place to die after being fatally wounded. It hangs here in my office where I could probably hoist a collection of my big buck images. I’ll have to think about that.

Journaling New Horizons

Here we are fresh into a new year, and I am already having old thoughts, those that bring me back to where I was exactly one year ago. All of which began a few years before that with an ad on Facebook featuring a journal of Minnesota’s then 65 state parks. Although many had been visited over the years, there was neither a file of photographs nor a journal consisting of my thoughts of the individual parks.

Once the book arrived a look at the journaling aspects showed a facing page offering basically an itinerary and planning guide followed by a log of the who, what and whens of the visit on the second page. Not being a list maker, this was way too detailed for my tastes, so, I created my own little manner of journaling that now includes an opening page of photographs followed by my actual journaling. Black ink to the rescue! “Fill your paper with the breathings of your heart,” cautioned William Wordsworth. I can’t do that with a list.

Shortly after receiving the book I pasted my first image … one of my late wife, Sharon Yedo White, sitting on a log at the then new Afton State Park with our two sons along with our then exchange student, Fredrik Croona from Sweden. My own image was reflected in a mirror she was holding. It was taken around 1985 or so. Our first home in Minnesota was about a mile south of the southern border of the park, on a bluff overlooking the confluence of the St. Croix and Kinnickinnic Rivers. That was perhaps our most blissful summer together before the stresses of life snagged us … starting a family along with a corporate business life in magazines and an ad agency.

Ah, yes, the makings of a journal. A photograph plus a facing page containing my written thoughts. I promised to fill the rest of the photographic page with images from the park, which was accomplished this past October.

By November of 2024 some 38 state parks had been visited and journaled, although one of my favorites where we spent so much time camping and fishing both as a couple and later with many foreign exchange students, the Upper Sioux Agency State Park, was decommissioned and the land returned to the Dakota Nation. While that was likely an overdue move by the State, it’s a place that holds many fine memories as well as beautiful camping nooks for escaping the ills of society. Yes, it’s journaled.

Just inside the journal is a state map noting the location of each state park, and by now, some three years after receiving the journal most of the state parks in the southern half of the state, from the tip of the Driftless along the Mississippi River and Iowa Border up to the Canadian Border, have been visited, photographed and journaled. Indeed, last September after our aborted effort to do the Lake Superior Circle Tour, we decided to start at Grand Portage State Park at the Canadian border and visit all of the State Parks along the Superior “coast.” A redemption, if you will. Something to sooth our raw souls (yes, thoughts that were journaled!).

Our first day went well, and the second started wonderfully with a short hike into the falls at Cascade River SP that was breathtakingly beautifully. The park was a “water baby’s” dream offering waves of photographic poetry. Next was Temperance River SP where I choose to take a rock stairwell rather than a paved path and lost my balance on a deeper than expected step. Down I went, crushing my camera and lens beneath my body in a hard fall. Both were ruined, which has since led to quite a technological adventure, and one that is quite challenging for a man my age.

After much thought and concern, the decision was made to continue with my art. I wasn’t ready to quit even as I turned 81. Since my crushed Nikon had been discontinued I have since “graduated” into a whole new realm of technology. My old photo processing software wouldn’t handle the new imagery, and then came the reality that the printer I’d used for the past several years was obsolete. Epson had discontinued producing the specified ink cartridges …. meaning a new printer. More technology, and one I’m still dealing with. My two main software programs still operating on my old iMac desktop were long obsolete although still usable with the older equipment. New camera. New software. New printer. More new technology. New tricks for an old mind.

Yet, there’s the state park journal along with my quest to continue my form of “Impressionistic Prairie Art.” No, I wasn’t ready to quit — not my art nor my journal, not when I only 26 state parks short of completing my goal!

This past year we actually visited 17 parks. This came after a count when I sort of felt like I’d short changed myself. This doesn’t include our home park, Big Stone Lake SP with its distant Bonanza Educational Center. Both that and the Meadowbrook section are visited numerous times each month.

So now I’m where I was a year ago in looking over my journaling and the parks previously visited and scheming forthcoming trips. Minnesota is blessed with some of the most beautiful and interesting state parks in the nation, and hopefully if my health and energy continues we’ll make a dent in the 26. Typically we’ll park the camper at one state park and visit any that are close by, Roberta holds Joe Pye on a leash while I search for imagery, sauntering down a narrow wooded trail or seeking an angle of a beautiful river, all while seeking some photographic “poetry.”

Twelve for Twenty Four

Way back when, nearly 60 years ago, I entered the Fourth Estate, otherwise known as professional journalism. About this time of year the editors, perhaps in need of filling space with the shrinking of the newsy tidbits that seemed to ebb with the holiday season, would ask us to select our favorite stories or photographs they would then feature in the paper.

Long retired from the grind of my former profession, about a dozen years ago I began to fully focus on the last one percent of the prairie pothole ecosystem with my camera. Since then my work has been featured in various galleries, art shows, a few magazines and here at my home studio especially during the annual Upper Minnesota River Arts Meander. For the past several years I’ve gone back to that old newspaper gig of selecting what I considered my favorite 12 images of the year.

My selection process began the day after Christmas and my selections were chosen in typical brainstorming fashion … by gleaning through my monthly files of images to place in a desktop file. At that point there were a few favorites, yet that wasn’t the point of this annual review. Later would come the judgement. I wanted a dozen, but another five were so close that I found myself continually adding and subtracting … so here are my 12 plus a few others, for whatever it’s worth. By the way, thanks for your continued engagement and support of my work.

Years ago my Art of Erosion was part of a Smithsonian traveling water exhibit, and I’ve still found myself still searching for imagery of dirt captured in the snow … like this image that I call the “Monks of Dirt.”
The past couple of years we’ve been blessed with Northern Lights, and this was among my favorites … lights framed by a grove of trees at a wetland not far from here.
So far I’ve made four trips to the annual Sandhill Crane migration in central Nebraska, although this time I didn’t rent a blind. This image was captured at dusk in a stalk field on our last night there.
Nearby is the Big Stone NWR, consisting of backwater sloughs, shoulders of granite and gneiss outcrops and a beautiful prairie … where this tree was captured within the bloom of June.
Another nearby “must” is the Bonanza Education Center of Big Stone Lake State Park, where I caught this “Sumac Feast.”
When I visited the Nerstrand-Big Woods State Park, a few years ago, time restraints convinced me to skip a hike down to the falls. I made it back in October, and this was made just below the falls where oak leaves caught droplets from the falls.
A late afternoon image of an oak in the Bonanza prairie. The lines. The colors. The blessings of light on the prairie grasses. The craginess!
Swans are almost always a part of Maplewood State Park, and I loved the feel of this one caught through the twinning of underbrush. A feel of stained glass …
Thanks to my good friend, Chris Ingebretsen, manager of Bluemounds State Park, I’ve been able to capture various images of the extremely rare White Fringed Prairie Orchid. Yes, it is on the Endangered Species List.
An array of autumn color in the hills of Nerstrand Big Woods SP.
Another Bonanza image, of the aftermath of a strong storm system that rocked the prairie for a long summer afternoon.
The last of my 12, a double rainbow blessed with the help of a crow.

Here are the ones that were close, so my apologies …

Since my retirement I’ve mostly avoided making images involving human involvement, yet this image from Lake Superior grabs me. This was the first night after an aborted effort to do the Lake Superior Circle Tour, when we were able to secure the last available camping spot in a commercial campground, one on a rise overlooking the lake. This, during the “blue hour,” was the highlight of our trip.
Following the election I was in search of calm waters … the East Pool of the Refuge.
A “fan” of prairie color from the Big Stone NWR …
Captured as we were leaving Frontenac State Park, just because I love trees and beautiful colors.
And this one, just because I love the color and feel.

Thanks for hanging in there with me. And, here’s to a healthy, peaceful and engaging New Year!

An Assignment …

For the past several years I’ve given myself one assignment. Just one. That I will search for a hopefully representative image that speaks of the Winter Solstice. Some years it is nip and tuck as I await a “true” representative image that speaks of the day and moment, one that typically that involves light and color — two of the major elements of artistic expression.

A few times I’ve had to wait through most of the day for such a moment to be revealed, for I want the image to feel special. Something meaningful. Something I hope happens before sunset on this, the shortest day of the year.

This quest began some 30 years ago when I was running a small country weekly newspaper here in the prairie. I was in need of a nice image for the top fold of the front page, and yes, I realized that on that particular Tuesday afternoon that it was the Winter Solstice. Initially this was simply an excuse to find a hook for the paper being published just ahead of  Christmas and I wasn’t buying into using another Santa picture. I was in pursuit of a prairie image within the moment.

My first Winter Solstice image nearly 30 yers ago outside of Clara City.

A frigid haze softened the brutal temperature as I looked across Hawk Creek while eating a sandwich, this just a couple of hours before we would send the paper to the printers. And there it was right in front of me (of all places!). With my camera in hand I traipsed through my little backyard prairie garden to the bank of the Hawk to take a picture of a neighboring farmstead nestled within the frozen haze, the sun barely poking through the dense gloom. 

From that point forward I’ve continued to search for an interesting and hopefully  meaningful Winter Solstice image. My one assignment! A year or two later it happened en route to the Post Office when a flock of pigeons burst from the town’s grain elevator to fly toward one of those rainbow-ish arcs of a sundog. One year it came down to the last light, one of those “rainbow skies,” as a friend once labeled those prairie horizons encroaching on the blue hour. Every year it seems something different reveals itself.

Pigeons near an arc of Sundog a few years later.

This, I’ll readily admit, is one of the joys of winter ranking close photographically with whims of a first hoarfrost or snowfall. Yet, I find the Solstice far more important and that it falls on a designated day. As far as the Summer Solstice goes, it’s sort of been more of a “blah” sort of feeling, for the narrowing of light hasn’t held the same flow of energy for me  as having longer days and ever more sunlight. Call it my inner pagan, if you desire.

I didn’t know what to expect this year, and truthfully I’ve been fighting a funk since the election. It’s not so much that my candidate lost, but rather who she lost to. I fear deeply for our country, for our form of government, and on a more personal level, for the continued  help necessary for my son with disabilities to have a meaningful life.

Since the election I’ve searched for some artistic revelation, For the first few days I found myself searching the prairie potholes around here for calm waters. Something psychologically soothing. On many days I found them, yet I couldn’t sit and write feelings I felt like sharing. Indeed, this is the first piece I’ve published since then.

In 2021 this image was caught in the “blue hour” moments before darkness.

A revelation is seemingly a moment of unexpected magic, of having a truth revealed in some inordinate way. Would something like this happen on this year’s Winter Solstice? When I climbed into the truck mid-morning I left Listening Stones in almost a frantic search, glancing into the trees and prairie grasses, searching the frozen wetlands and the cloudy sky. There was no preconceived thoughts. I wanted whatever image to be organic. Yes, there was an interesting array of wavy clouds with the sun weaving in and out, and there was also some interesting limbs painted with fresh snow. 

My mind was sort of fixated on those clouds, and the thought that it might work over an expanse of ice, so I drifted toward the spillway dam of the East Pool of the Big Stone Wildlife Refuge. Those silken clouds, though, were due southeast and nowhere near the ice, so I drove along slowly until I found my moment … two sets of animal tracks highlighted by the sun crossing the snowy wind dunes covering the ice — tracks coming from different directions that crossed before venturing off in different directions. A natural “crossroads” within nature, the hoof edges caught by a low, southerly light.

My image of the Solstice last Friday, of the crossing of animal tracks on the East Pool.

Those tracks seemed to echo precisely my feelings of what is going on not just personally, but also politically, of how the results of the election might affect our relationships with allies, neighboring countries. and even our enemies, We are all seemingly caught in this crossroad of philosophy and doubt, of what might happen in the weeks and months ahead. 

That there was no color seemed to perfectly portray this singular moment and thought in time. 

For several long moments I stared at the tracks, of their respective paths, of how they came from different directions, then crossed before venturing poetically in different directions. My thought was  that I had somehow successfully fulfilled my quest; that my Winter Solstice assignment had been accomplished. And that I was fortunate to discover and record this fragile moment as an image.

Oaken Moments

Two women stood in front of a canvas I’d titled “Oaken Umbrella.” They conversed somewhat secretly it seemed, sometimes raising fingers to perhaps camouflage their conversation. Other Meander customers were coming forth with credit cards offered and various images in hand. 

After glimpsing the two leave the image, then return, time after time, again speaking in huddled conference, I finally found a moment to chat with them. “Would you like to take it down to move it into better light?” I offered.

No, said one. “We love this but it’s more than we can spend,” said the other.

I briefly remembered the moment the picture was taken. This beautiful oak was on the Griffin Land on a hillside overlooking Lake Gilchrist, with its wide and staunch limbs stretching protectively wide to encompass the undergrowth along with thoughts and memories of this and other proud and stately oaks. It was much like the Heath Gunn poem of “The Spreading Oak” … broad and thick, and handsome trunk, supports the mighty branches, arching, spanning, spreading as if like Medieval lances … “

This image, Oaken Umbrella, served as a memorial for a woman who embraced oak trees.

That is the thing about oak trees, which my partner, Roberta, refers to as “Halloween Trees” thanks to the often ghostly looking stark limbs that seem to jut from the trunks, limbs that are quite visible about now as the late fall has denuded many of the trees. Gnarly and stately trunks of especially the older trees, some dating more than a century in age, offer forms of visual poetry that nearly always grasps my eye.

About 11 years ago the Bonanza portion of Big Stone Lake State Park was introduced to me by a young woman friend, a night when a full moon beckoned in the sky far above the hillside prairie of the park. There, standing all alone away from a small oaken savanna in an abbreviated ravine, was an oak I’ve since photographed numerous times. By now the tree is an old friend, one you feel you should reach out to now and then just to see how things are going.

There it stood, a “Halloween Tree,” the grasses golden in the prairie beyond.

Stoic and strong, standing in the text of time, there isn’t much of a shared conversation. Yet, even one-sided I can feel the strength and independence of the lone oak. A few years ago a devastating derecho came in off Big Stone Lake to raise havoc with many of the aged-old oaks both along the lakeside and there in the ravines of the prairie hillside. All that damage is still quite visible as most was left in place thanks to this being a “natural act of nature.” Yet, this single oak suffered no damage.

Just a few days ago we were ambling through the Bonanza searching for possible deer images when the afterglow of the prairie sunset painted an incredible orangish blaze in the grasses beyond the limbs of yet another old oak nearby. Roberta’s “Halloween” look of the old limbs snaked poetically from the trunk, somewhat silhouetted against the vivid color of the late sun-kissed prairie grasses that provided a splendid background. 

Emerging leaves from the staunch limbs on trees in a small oak savanna during a Master Naturalist hike near Redwing caught my eye.

Oaks have long sought my eye. Where I was raised in the hilly northeastern portion of Missouri,  the oaks on our farm were as dynamic to me as the shagbark hickories, and both were so unique and visually beautiful. Sometimes I would stop my horse to rein in that picturesque beauty, or if I was on a tractor mowing the hillsides, I would momentarily stop in awe. Now deep into retirement I still find an excuse to drive back onto the land now farmed by my nephew just to soak in the views of those old trees once again. And yes, most still grace those grassy hillsides all these years later.

On a Thanksgiving weekend evening a few years back, one of those old oak trees defied its  forestal surroundings with broad shouldered limbs defining its existence, limbs emerging from the dabbing of purplish leaves all around. My camera was raised to record this moment of late afternoon beauty. 

Back on the family farm in Missouri, this old oak stood apart from its forestal surrounding.

It didn’t take much imagination for me to close my eyes and have a running mental “film” rush though my memory of dozens of other encounters with various oak trees besides this one on the Griffin Land. Not long after my introduction to forest bathing a few years ago, that mix of nature with meditative breathing and awareness, i was on a Master Naturalist field trip in a Driftless forest near Redwing, MN, when I realized I was standing beneath an incredible theatre of oaken beauty. Leaning against a trunk and looking upwards into the branches and twigs, small immature leaves were starting to break from the buds. Almost involuntarily my breathing slowed and the meditation and kinship eased over me. 

Yes, I lifted the camera to take a few images of the canopy, and moments later trying to catch up with the rest of the tour, I found myself turning to gaze back at what was now stoic and strong old friends, taking different pictures of the oaks from various angles, even from a distant hill where the leader had taken us. I wasn’t a very attentive student, I’m afraid, although my guess was that the guide would have thoroughly understood.

The Bonanza ravines provide a home to small oak savannas that draw me in.

So the two women were back at the canvas of the Griffen oak when one said, “We looked through all your matted prints for a smaller one, something closer to our budget and couldn’t find one.”

“You see,” added the other woman, “a few months ago a dear friend of ours died of MS, and to her there was nothing more beautiful and meaningful than an old oak tree. Like this one. We were considering this as a memorial tribute to her.”

I asked if they had a few moments, that I would run down to my workbench and make them a print. As much as they seemed pleased with the gesture, there was a sense of kinship with someone I didn’t know who must have understood the lure of the beauty of such strong, stately and beautiful trees … the oaks. 

Already a Winner

There! I’ve entered a new photography contest. It’s been awhile, not since hoping for a spot in the annual Minnesota State Fair arts sweepstakes a few years ago. Frankly, I’m holding on to as much hope for this one as I did for that one. These affairs are rather subjective, and in this case, was the sponsors looking for artistic takes of nature or images that honor the overall beauty and significance of the Refuge?

I went with the latter, dismissing a couple of the more artistic possibilities. This is a revered place, home of huge monolithic outcrops released by the Glacial River Warren some 10,000 years ago. The goal here is for safe passage for waterfowl, yet it also is a summer harbor for prairie birds with very little habitat beyond the Refuge borders. Meadowlarks, Bob-o-Links, Nighthawks and the like find as much refuge here as the shorebirds, ducks and geese.

So there are the feathered species and the outcrops, rare ball cactus and countless forbs rarely seen outside of this beautiful Refuge. This paradise draws photographers like Rob Rakow, Don Sherman, Tom Watson, Jim Foster and any number of outsiders hoisting a cell phone or camera. For all these reasons. It’s an honor to be apart of this vast fraternity and the hope they will have also entered the contest. 

Capturing a Great White Egret easing down a fallen tree with the autumn foiliage was my choice for the water category.

Jointly sponsored by the Lac qui Parle County SWCD and the Big Stone National Wildlife Refuge, this one featured “my home” NWR, just 11 miles from here. Dozens of trips are made through the Refuge every month when the gate is open, and it is only closed when snow blocks the auto tour. I love the Refuge, for all the reasons mentioned above. The contest was my small way of supporting friends who work in both places. Besides, I was content to come home from meetings in the Cities to scour through the couple thousand images from the Refuge for the contest. I had some in mind and just had to find them and make a choice.

Then I re-read the rules and realized that the main criteria was that the photographs had to be taken within a one week period that ended Saturday night. Those old files weren’t eligible. This meant having to download all the images I’d taken at three state parks on the eastern side of the state, along with a few dozen from the Crex Meadows Wildlife Area in Wisconsin, from the week before to clear space on my camera card. That chore was finished mid-afternoon on Friday.

While I love this image, there was concern about something “arty” being a choice of the judges.

With the reformatted card and a charged battery I was then off to the Refuge in search of imagery for the three basic categories: water, land and sky. Sky, it turned out, was useless because of the dense gray featureless clouds. My initial trip through the auto tour didn’t offer much that first afternoon, although two of what I call “photographic poetry” images had my attention. One was an “arty” take of an autumn-blessed tree through a barely visible “screen” of a bushy prairie plant, purposely softened with a quite short depth of field. The other was a cool image of both floating and sunken leaves in a stretch of the Minnesota River. I needed more.

So before the Saturday morning sunrise I ventured to the far west border of the Refuge where I had an overlook of the entire Refuge. A few years ago this was where I captured a nice image of ambient sunset colors painting the clouds over the Refuge prairie, pools and wetlands. This was among the images being considered before re-reading the rules.

So the wait began, and to no avail for the clouds were much too dense for the sun to break through. It was back into the truck to head to the opposite side along Highway 75 and the dike overlook of the East pool where just before the Meander in early October I captured some nice silhouettes of Great Blue Herons stalking the shallows along the rocky shores. Nope, they weren’t there. 

It was off toward Odessa, venturing off into the first turn where a Great White Egret captured my eye as it patiently stalked down the length of a fallen tree. This would be my choice for the “water” category, for the lighting was perfect to emphasize the surrounding autumn foliage, and the composition was there for the taking. One of those moments of being in the right spot at the right time!

From there it was back to the Auto Drive. In all, I wouldn’t leave the Refuge until mid-afternoon, walking the trails, climbing those broad-shoulder outcrops and venturing down various mowed paths. 

A deer, the second one I’ve ever seen in all my times in the Refuge, and I spent numerous moments staring one another down. Hikes were made through the brush and prairie plants for other images along the river and the pools, and eventually included a nearly mile-long walk to an outcrop I’ve always intended to visit. It was recently “revealed” as numerous piles of buckthorn and scrub trees awaited a match all around the circumference of the husky granite. There wasn’t a bad view from the outcrop. Not one. There I sat for nearly an hour, listening, watching crows and a developing murmuration ply the skies, just breathing in a magnificent, 360 degree view of the Refuge. 

It actually doesn’t matter who has the chosen images, and if it isn’t one of mine it won’t matter for I’m already a winner for venturing into both familiar places and areas of the Refuge I’d not visited … all on an idyllic autumn day, capturing what images I could in the midst of the many 10,000 year old geological wonders within the park. An unexpected bonus was being introduced to a new fishing spot by a fellow in a pickup with South Dakota license plates. So, yes, I’m already blessed, and there is nothing wrong with that.