A Letter of Love

Dear Audrey and Asa:

Although you don’t know one another you have more in kinship than you perhaps realize. Ties with Italy comes to mind, although I write of a deeper kinship appreciation for each of you. Audrey, you blessed me years ago with the sense of hope that is celebrated on the shortest day of the year, while you, Asa, convinced me of the joy in celebrating the gift of life on summer’s longest day. Two solstices a half year apart. 

Believe me, you two strong and beautiful women of commitment, grace and joy, who have devoted both your private lives and careers to the betterment of all mankind and our planet, for you have each humbled me. Through the years I’ve tried to honor your gifts by capturing imagery to express those two necessities of life.

2025

You, Audrey, came as a prairie activist offering a glimpse and an appreciation of a geological past that now haunts us deeply … if we are simply aware enough to pay heed to the mere ghosts of a distant geological past. Back when grasslands stretched across the lands of what is now a vast nationwide patchwork of commodity crops, back when meadowlarks and bobolinks were as common as household sparrows, when visions of bison and antelope seemed on par with today’s white-tailed deer, and when prairie wetlands dotted the landscape as numerous as the clouds they reflect on days of perfectly calm waters. Yet, it was even a deeper past that touches me in the darkness of Decembers … that of light, of a pagan celebration that acknowledges the coming of days of longer light, of hope. 

You and Richard Handeen have religiously built huge bonfires on your rural Montevideo organic farm where we hovered besides burning logs to roast thin slices of venison and huddled close to the flames reaching skyward into the vast darkness. Usually you provided us with two large fires. One near your warm summer kitchen, often filled with music being created, and one deeper into the woods where we sat on straw bales with mugs of Cabernet and glanced through naked tree limbs for glimpses of the moon or those telling stars of Orion. Over the years as my sons grew into adulthood, your Winter Solstice bonfires and camaraderie rivaled Christmas.

2024

Certainly the celebration of hope on this long, dark night grasped my interests long before meeting Asa. I now marvel of how well you two could be sisters, each aiming for hope while reaching for a clearer and better world despite the many obstacles, of how you each give tokens to both the openness and closures of the light of life. 

Asa, you came to us when we were regional coordinators for EF Foundation for Foreign Studies, a non-profit that brought high school aged exchange students to the States, of providing a sharing of family life with a stranger from another culture as if the teenager was one of our own. That’s what happened, time after time. And it was during this time, especially during the heady summer work of finding willing and suitable host families that you invited us to EF’s Boston headquarters for encouragement and, yes, a celebration of your dear Swedish Mid Summer tradition. That nod to light and joy. The Summer Solstice! Most of those celebrations were held in the EF headquarters along the Charles River and across the bridge from downtown Boston. One memorable summer you took us to your home where Rufus did the culinary honors. 

2013

A Summer Solstice comes just a few days before the anniversary of the passing of Sharon, my wife of 32 years. For me there seemed a link between the two and I started looking back at those celebrations with both joy and admiration while seeking a deeper awareness of light. Sharon would have loved those Mid Summer moments when chairs replaced hay bales, and sunshine held off darkness as glasses were clinked and smiles and fellowship were shared with friends from around the world. So I thank you, Asa, for that correlation, for that way of celebrating not just the light and joys of life, but also the memories of the brightness of being.

Nowadays I make an effort to honor the Summer Solstice in much the same manner as I have the Winter Solstice. For both I find myself “chasing” light to in some way capture the essence of light and nature in a form of positive joy.; to create an image I believe you each might want to hold for a moment, to perhaps smile and offer a word of grace and fellowship between that light, nature and mankind. 

2021

Hopefully in a some small way this capturing of light, the essence of our sun, comes across pleasantly and with the joy intended. Rarely do I begin my effort with a particular image in mind, although my Summer Solstice this year began with a lone tree on a prairie hillside. Would the sun lower in a way that would create an interesting image? Would the composition work? Would the stand alone tree be bathed with joyful light? Would joy be portrayed?

While all that might seem strange I can recall at least two instances when trying to capture light for a Winter Solstice came down to a momentary and sudden glimpse of colorful light mere moments before the darkening dusk. Struggles have occurred with the Summer Solstice imagery, too. A grouping of hovering swallows were caught in a near circle above the Minnesota River to save one day, and over the year storms have entered the pictures. But, isn’t that something you might expect in life? Despite all of our will to celebrate? Be it hope or joy? That there are storms?

2015

It has been a long while since I attempted a “love” letter, and this one is perhaps a measly attempt at one. Yet I feel I owe you each an appreciation for your individual efforts for the betterment of our lonely planet, especially in these times of national and international turmoil. I feel I owe you each a great deal of gratitude for making me notice a need to appreciate and celebrate both hope and joy. Aren’t those are what the celebrations of the two solstices are about?

Sincerely,

Your Friend Forevermore

Hoe, Hoe, Weed & Mow

The onset of summer-like weather has jump-started the growing season–and the weeds. Last weekend, John, Martin, and I put in the tomatoes, peppers, and most of the rest of the onions and leeks.

This morning, before the real heat set in (I think it might’ve hit 90!) I hoed that whole new tomato garden to wipe out the first post-planting flush of weeds. They never look very menacing at that tiny “white thread” stage (named for their single thin taproot), but they are a lot easier to take out at that stage and in this hot weather, when any little soil disturbance makes them wither and die.

The Red Ranger broiler chickens are growing like the weeds, too. John took to calling them the “Drumsticks,” so I’m now referring to them as “Drummies.” They’re only three weeks old now, but I swear some of their legs are as thick as a full-grown laying hen.

I grabbed one up particularly recalcitrant one up in my hands this evening as I was trying to herd them into their kennel, and was amazed at how “meaty” it felt. Just solid and pulsing with heat and energy. I’ve never raised the typical Cornish Cross broilers, which some farmers I know are repulsed by for their tendency to do nothing but sit by the feeder and eat ’til their legs give out, but I’m impressed by the zip of these Rangers.

In the morning when I release them from their secure quarters, they all race out into the grass pen, flapping their wings and checking out anything that might’ve changed in the night. That’s not to say they don’t like their ration: I’ve taken to calling feeder-filling time, the “Drummie Scrum,” and I’ve also taken to filling a third feeder because fifty rapidly growing chickens at two feeders got to be a little too crazy for me to find amusing anymore.

The guys headed off to camp tonight, and I hope they have good weather for it (or at least that Martin is not scared, and the tent doesn’t leak–in that order). We have seen dark clouds roll through a few times today, and now there is lightning flashing in a few different directions. I got the raised bed garden watered early this morning, but I didn’t have time to water the tomato garden before work–I did water it yesterday, so it should be fine.

Instead of watering this evening, I stayed out ’til 9:30 or so weeding garden beds and cleaning things up with the gas trimmer–taking the cages off the rugosa roses and serviceberry and hazelnuts and trimming around them and the edges of border beds and around the buffalo berry bushes. We’ve got a couple of cattle panels leaning up against our power poles, and I pulled those out and trimmed underneath them, too. I think grass loves cattle panels more than anything–if you leave one sitting along a fenceline or in the yard for any length of time, it becomes a real project to pull it out.

I also took a hint from my friend and colleague Robin Moore, who is this amazing blacksmithing, flower-growing, skill-having woman I’m blessed to know. We were at a Women Caring for the Land gathering that Land Stewardship Project hosts in Glenwood, and she started talking about this guy who buys up all the old seed from garden centers and where-have-you and plants it all together in a big, crazy mix.

I got to thinking about all the one or two year-old flower and herb seed I have just sitting around, waiting for the perfect place to put it. Except there is no perfect place, and there is no time to individually plant every last thing I want to grow (or even that I have seed for). But what I did have is this kind of bare, ugly place along the west side of the goat barn that used to have a big pile of goat manure on it, and was sprouting a bunch of weeds.

There were plans for that spot–I was going to transplant the “secret stash” of hollyhocks that John has so far managed not to mow (my dear husband is a hollyhock-hater, but I will let him tell that story!), but with the weather so hot and the spot so remote from my normal watering route, that probably would’ve just led to more hollyhock demise. So instead I mixed up a great, big batch of flower and herb seed–from amaranth to cilantro to Thai basil to zinnias and everything in between–and I hoed up the area, kicked some soil over it, and we’ll see what grows. Oh, and dare I say the mix contains my mother’s special “no-mow” hollyhocks? Shhhhh!

Then I cracked a cold beer and sat on the corner of a garden bed in the deepening dusk–when all the bird calls sound as if they’re coming from far away, watching lightning play across the southern sky and the rain clouds curtain around the farm. The breeze was light, the mosquitoes were somehow absent, and I spent some well-earned time just enjoying the view of the work we’ve accomplished.